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The Big Sisters

my older sister woo, the oldest child in our family and in our extended family, had an epiphany one day. she came to the realization that she and mimi were both the first born, and girls for that matter. that they shared a kinship of blood and circumstance. so she recently sent mimi a letter and some books about being a big sister. i explained that her eemo woo was also the first born girl in my family, just like mimi. she nodded and said 'oh.' (eh. what did you expect?)

it got me thinking about my relationship with my sisters and cousins. i never realized how special that kind of closeness that my sisters and my cousins shared was until more recently when talking to others and hearing that they arent so close to their siblings/cousins. i realize now that we were lucky to 1. live close together, 2. to be so close in age (about a one year age difference between us...at the most, two years difference), and 3. have so many personality similarities. the perfect storm. a trifecta of kinship.

i started to think about the generation that mimi will grow up in. will she be as close to her brother, who is 4.5 years younger, as i was to my sisters and cousins? will ozzy grow to be close to cousin jacob, so recently born, just 3 months after him, but who lives in another city? will there be any more cousins forthcoming? and will they we see much of them if they are in new york or indianapolis or las vegas? i wonder if what my sisters and cousins and i shared will not be the same for mimi and ozzy. the thought makes me unfathomably sad.

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