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baby on the brain

well, you know when you're really preggo b/c you become very forgetful. yesterday i forgot my social security number. and even worse, i couldnt remember our home phone number to save my life! i was filling out the hospital preregistration...it's not due until may, but i just can't stop thinking about the baby and wanting to do everything i can that is baby related! it's very exciting. rob made me put it away for at least another month or two.

today, i realized i could probably lose all the different blogs i have for mimi (one on yahoo, one on msn, and now this one on google), so i went thru them and printed them out. of couse the hard copy isnt the same as the online ones since i had quite a few videos on them that of course wont play on paper, but atleast the words are saved for posterity. i began reading some of the entries and was just cracking up remember how funny mimi was when she was so little. all of her cute little antics, and got this really happy feeling thinking of how we'll experience those things again with our next little one. of course, i know it will be different, but some things will still be the same, i'm sure. and then i could feel my heart get filled up with so much love for this little unborn baby. i hope this next one has hiccups in utero every night at 8pm like mimi did. that was sweet. and i hope this next baby wears that funny smile every time he/she passes gas like mimi did when she was a newborn. that always brought a smile to my face.

already, i have a positive outlook on even the ceasarian delivery. although, i have still been considering hypno-birthing, just b/c i know i will be stressed trying to deal with baby, mimi, and household stuff after the baby is born, and i know the surgery will leave me feeling pretty badly. so i'm thinking some of the skills that a hypnotherapist could teach me would help me deal w/my feelings and help me project a more positive outlook postpartum.

we're not even halfway thru this pregnancy, but i already feel ready to have this baby and i think mimi is getting pretty ready to be a big sister. she is such a big girl and can do so much on her own. i do love her so much. for awhile i was feeling sorry for her...for our relationship, thinking, it wont be mimi and mommy anymore. now i will have to divide my attention. but these days, i'm feeling like both mimi and i will benefit from the addition to our relationship. and of course mimi and i will always have our special bond...nothing can change that.

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