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Car Dream

mimi says she's been having lots of bad dreams lately. she has also been increasingly moodier and moodier every day, with periodic crying jags, feeling sorry for herself, saying she can't do anything right, and at night she wants me to stay with her when she's in bed. the other day she told me she had another dream about being in a car with no driver, and she gets in the car and the car takes her away from me and she can't control the car and she can't come back to me. pretty deep stuff for a five year old. somehow, i have a sinking feeling it's probably something i've done or not done. *sigh*. is it inevitable that one day she will be griping about 'mom' to her therapist?

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  1. T RafiJune 22, 2009 at 9:38 AM

    do you think it could be related to starting kindergarten this Fall?

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  2. sangJune 22, 2009 at 11:01 AM

    she hasn't said too much about kindergarten recently. she is looking forward to going to fairhill and has said so a few times since the orientation. i think she is feeling the stress of 11 months of taking a backseat to a baby brother, having to have more responsibilities than she feels capable of or wanting to handle, dealing with a less patient mom, leaving her preschool, starting swim class (which she has lots of worries about), and general feeling like her life is out of her control and mom is not as available to her the way i used to be before ozzy was born.

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