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a quasi post...more to come soon

it's been awhile since my last post. so much has been happening and i havent had the energy or time to sit and blog.

since my last post, our family was gearing up for our big OBX 2009 beach vacation with extended family and friends. upon our return, we had to hit the ground running to get mimi ready for the first day of kindergarten (which i will hopefully post in detail in another post to come). that first week alone was enough to perforate my stomach with ulcers, but as if that wasnt enough, barely a week after our return, kaya gets diagnosed with osteosarcoma.

our house is a wreck, it looks like it threw up toys and laundry. and a part of me that can actually notice anything is vaguely annoyed by it, but it's not a top priority right now. i'm consumed with thoughts of mimi at kindergarten and her future and thoughts of kaya and her lack of future. between these two things, i am a mess. poor ozzy saw me crying today. just sitting in the middle of the living room floor, unable to stop the tears from flowing, and letting one heaving sob after another roll out. he toddled over, put his little arms around my shoulders, and patted me on my back. and the day just went on pretty much like that, with me making little progress on anything, and just finding myself crying.

i will be posting about kaya soon too. i just wanted to get this bit posted for now. i didnt want to one day look back on this point in the blog and wonder why there was such a big gap in between postings and be stuck trying to remember what happened.

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