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things are getting a little better with breastfeeding. this week i have done away with supplements in the night...now ozzy is strictly breastfeeding thru the night...and we are co-sleeping and he is feeding periodically thru the night. i am so tired i honestly have no idea what time he is waking, nor do i have any idea how many times he is feeding and for how long. i am so zonked that when i wake in the morning, eyes practically glued shut from dehydration from lactating, i think it's a miracle that i havent smothered the baby in my sleep.

it does bother me that i've been sleeping so hard that i have stretches of sleep where i'm completely unaware of my physical space. w/mimi, i could sleep lightly and be aware through out the night. i guess i am not getting as much solid sleep this time around. i am not going to bed early enough. w/mimi i went to bed at 8pm and rob took care of mimi until midnight before passing her back to me. but she was so colicky that she would cry from 4pm until midnight those days, so someone HAD to be on duty. ozzy cluster feeds in the evening and then is out for the count by 10ish and stays down until the wee hours of the morning.

today he only had 4 oz of supplements...a huge change from the 18 oz of formula he had been getting just 2 weeks ago. the rest of his feeds are breastmilk. i have been pumping periodically at night and find that my evening output is still under 1 oz.

what is strange is, my pumping output is low and ozzy always seems hungry, but when i latch him on, i dont think he's emptying my breasts. i can still see milk coming out when he breaks off, and there shouldnt be any leaking out if he is draining it completely. and even more bothersome is all the milk i see pooling in his mouth that he just lets sit there and dribble out!!! wont even swallow the milk in his mouth? that just seems odd. it's almost like he's too lazy to swallow that last bit of milk. weird.

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